January 2010

Another one more day...
is new year..2010...
Hopefully 2010 will be a good year for everyone..
anyway i do not expect much in 2010...
i just pray tat 2010 will be a peaceful year...
there are many things tat waiting for us...
So we need to be caution and be prepare all d time...

Now talk about January...
there are many actuvities going on...
Beside start to prepare for coming JCN drama...

2jan-8jan=going to Johor Bharu!!!"Self-dicovery church camp"(heard tat JB is a dangerous place,so must be careful),anyway i hope tat i can discover myself in tis camp.

6jan=my "mmu family"shu yin 21st birthday!!!(really sorry for can't attend ur birthday n join our first penang trip,anyway hope u all have a great time there.Our next trip will be organised by me k^.~)

14jan=my "mmu family"Terence 23rd birthday!!!^^

16jan=Going to KL!!!(meet my best friend,dear Alice^^It been one year nvr meet each other,since both of us are busy,at last we can meet up).(If time allow,maybe will have a stay at KL or Genting to meet my Genting buddy n KL buddy)

19jan=My best friend,Ye Lin 21st birthday!!!^.~(Guess that time she will be at UPM campus,let see how...)

25jan=form 5 buddy,Jia Ling 21st birthday!!!^^

28jan=mmu buddy,Brian Ong 22nd birthday!!!^^

Next year January is a very special month...cos there are many special@amazing things going on...but i am quite worried for Jcn Drama,cos this is the first time i wrote the drama scipt,need to help in conduct the drama,need to act too...seriously i start feel bit stress now...cos 6 of feb is coming up...we need to training,setting up back drop,think about clothes n others...time management is really important...~I am still new in acting,still need to keep training n improve...hopefully everythings will going smooth...god bless

伴侣

今天"N"突然传讯息给我...
问了我一些事情...
过后问我和terence之间的关系...
因为他听说我们有密切的关系...
~我们只是很好的朋友...
没有特别的关系...

过后他突然问我...
是否能追求我...
~而我回答他说..我不知该说什么,就让时间决定一切...
今天他开始行动了,一天传了很多封讯息...
只是空谈而已...
早知道我应该...哈哈

Terence今天告诉我..
他和J是不可能的...
因为毕竟是三角恋...
他会选择放弃...
但事情不是他想像得那么简单...
因为女方不会那么容易放手...
已经两次他选择停止...
但过后还是失败...

感情的事情很复杂...
伴侣是一辈子的事情...
不想被这些事情困扰...
就让时间决定一切吧...
因为我也没有特意去想这些...
有了伴侣,很多事情必须作出改变...
我还是比较喜欢自由的单身...
能够去爱身边每一个人...

离别@失去

我曾经想过...
如果有一天我身边某个人突然离我而去...
我会如何....
答案是....我会崩溃...

曾经很傻地去想过...
如果我没用心去交朋友的话...
那有多好...
至少我不会受伤...

曾经想过很遥远的事情...
我会选择自己先离去...
或者看着身边的人一个一个离我而去...
答案是...我做不到选择....

曾经想过...
当一段感情或友情认识到一个阶段的时候...
必须停止深入...
因为我害怕...
~越深入的感情...
会越难维持...

熬夜

昨天又熬夜了...
因为还没赶完部落格...
凌晨六点多才睡...
今天一早八点半就起床了...
因为需准备今天的presentation....

今天表现不太好...
头脑突然一片空白...
之前做好的准备突然忘了...
可能是因为紧张及不够睡眠...

今天的presentation真的很有挑战性...
因为评判会不停攻击及访问问题...
而且他们会特意为难你...
进入十强的组果然真的很强....
朋友说我回答得好...
其实我只想维护我们组的产品...
因为这可是我门的心血...

虽然得不到前三名...
但我们已经尽力了...
所谓尽力就是冠军...

我想这几天都会睡眠不足...
因为大考了...
需要啃书了...

~对了,这是我们的组的部落格,现在将会变成我们的回忆...solartechcompany.blogspot.com

压力与鼓励

现在是凌晨四点了,
我还没睡....
在准备来临星期六将用到的部落格..
刚去了朋友家做星期六presentation的准备...
凌晨三点才回到家...

今天发生了一些不愉快的事情...
进了十强是一件值得愉快的事情..
但也有问题的出现...

今天我们谈了关于星期六的穿着方面...
评判是订了必须穿formal...
而我们听了一些朋友说...
穿着很重要...
最好是一致...
因为会影响整体的分数...

而我们谈了是否需要穿西装...
大家都很矛盾...
因为这只是10分钟的presentation...
另五分钟将是问答题..
但这十五分钟却很贵重...
没有的人...
他们却想办法去买或借....
买一件西装的花费将真的不少...
有些组员的确为了这presentation花了不少钱...时间...精神...

看到每个组员的付出...
的确有点压力...
但这压力慢慢地转变成鼓励...
星期六要好好地加油了....
让这一切都是值得地...

SOMETIME...

Sometime i dunno what i am busy for...
sometime i dunno who i am...
sometime i dunno why should i act on...
sometime i dunno why i can't get the simple happiness...
since when i loss it...
sometime i dunno what should i do...
and what should i say...
sometime i dunno wat should i choose...
sometime i dunno...
why life is like that....
sometime i dunno why the world can be that way...
sometime i dunno why human can be so many type...
sometime i dunno why growing up can make the life so complicated...

That is time that i dunno...
i wish...i know...

Busy+worry...

monday nite get a good news,
my group assignment business plan,
our solar mug product get choosen into top 10,
that mean we will have the changes to present it in this comin saturday noon,
of cos hopefully we can make it into top 3...
our group total have 12 ppl,
yesterday,i and my another 2 friend get voting to bcome presenter on tat day...
acually it bring me abit worried...
i hope that i can present well on tat day...

this coming two week is really busy,
now alrdy start to prepare and training for JCN drama,
will be fall on 6 of february.
i will be act on tis drama...
the character is quite challenging for me...
everytime when i act on drama,
of cos i will feel bit stress...

final exam is around the corner too,
will be start on 19th till 23 disember...
i am so scared that i will not enough time to study well...
anyway keep going n god bless...

Promising

This few days really not enough sleeping time...
time is so pack...
everythings is keep rushing...
This week is dateline for all assignment...

Yesterday just think about JCN drama script...
Just complete it this morning...
Get the idea from youtube...
it will be a touching love story...
share with my friend..
they say quite nice...
but it really required a good actor to bring out the feeling...
but should be no worried...
cos the event will fall on next year,around February or Mac i think...
They just start d preparation earlier...

Coming January sem break...
acually plan to go a church camp"self discovery"at Plentong,Johor,
for 6days..start from 2jan till 8jan 2010...
my friend alrdy reserve a place for me....
cos is limited...

but just get know that it crash with my"mmu family"penang trip plan....
which depart at the same date...2jan
this will be our first trip...
around 5 to 6days too...
at the same time celebrate one of our mmu buddy 21st birthday there...
Just now,few of them look abit angry when they get know i having another alternative...
feel sorry for that..
of cos"family trip",all of us should went 2gether...
cos i also just get know about the detail...
just wish to share with u all...
anyway hard to make decision...
cos of the both promising....
haha..anyway..i alrdy have the answer...

GUC CAMP

Tuesday just finish the GUC camp,
this time the number of student that join are less,
but the ending is really wonderful...
is full of tears and touching...
the student is crying on the stage,
and tears is surround in the parent eye....

when i do promotion part with my leader,Galvin,that time....
we do go alot of place to promote our camp,
and this time our advertising even better than last year...
which we successfully advertise our camp in four newspaper,
nanyang,sinchew,chinapress and guangming....
compare to last year,
only in chinapress...
but what was curious is the number of parents that call up is less compare to last year...

that time leader start to worried about the number of participant,
but acually i not really worried...
cos i still believe that eveythings in god plan will be great...
god alrdy plan everythings...
even only one ppl joining...
we still need to keep going...
of cos being a leader is different...

Thursday,
we having meeting at church about the camp,
leader try to speak out his feeling about this camp,
all of us just try to speak out truly,
if we having any missunderstanding with each other...
we try apologies n thx to each other...
at last, all of us just speak out our inner feeling...

What i trying to say is everyone is trying their best in this camp,
some of them burn the midnite oil to do the slide show,timetable,photo,video n gift...
some of them even take two day unpaid leave bcos of this camp...
some purposely take a ride from KL to melaka and go back to kl again bcos of this camp...
some of them even sacrifice their study time,rush their assignment,presentation in d midnight...
but really thx god that..
he change the exam date from 24 to 25...
god do hear our prayer...
n thx god for his blessing...
bcos this time exam is not really hard as we expect...

of cos i would to say sorry if i do make any mistake...
acually i not really done well in this camp...
but of cos for sure i will try to make a change...

~thx to joanne who help me to finish a class exercise when i skip the class...haha..she is kind of funny,sms me what she wrote after she finish it

~thx to jessy who sms me at the moment i finish my camp that night...
calling me better go n sleep first,before doing revision..haha...she noe i will burn midnite oil..

yup,tuesday after the camp,we celebarate one of our committee member 21st birthday!^^We do have a great time.Wishing that her coming journey will be going great..cheers n god bless^.~

水瓶座

Yesterday my friend tag me in facebook,about my zodiac-Aquarius...hmm...i feel some of it quite true..haha..so share with u all..enjoy reading it...if wish to know more about others zodiac,can view my facebook profile..^.~

星座分析~~

水瓶座看到过花瓶的样子吗？口很小，想伸进去很难，但如果你能进入瓶子里，你真的会看到一个广阔无比的空间。瓶子们就是这样的。

当他们觉得你是真的真的爱他们，和你在一起真的真的安全时，他们会开始回馈的。他们回馈的时候你会惊奇到不敢相信，因为他们一旦爱一个人真的是无微不至。不过他们也很容易厌倦的呀，瓶子们有一颗猫一样的心，你要永远对他们有吸引力才好。不然他们很难不偷猩的。

男瓶尤其如此，他们有的时候真的是做了对不起你的事也丝毫没有愧疚。有时候他们会无理的想只要我心里真正爱的是你不会离开你就是真的爱你。他们的自由有时就是放纵的借口。

但瓶子们也有弱点的，当他做伤害你的事的时候，你要懂得让他换位思考，甚至直接用他对你的方式隔天对他试试。他就会渐渐明白对你的伤害是怎样的了。他爱你他就会逐渐的懂得在乎你的感受。

瓶子们轻易不说我爱你这三个字的，这三个字在他眼里太神圣，更重要的原因是他们觉得说了这三个字在爱情中仿佛主动权就失去了。他们太怕失去爱情中的主动权。但你却不能不对他们说，很没有道理，但没办法的。如果一个瓶子对你说了太多的我爱你，反而证明他内心深处对你没感觉只是玩玩而已了。

爱上瓶子是一件很苦的事，所以爱瓶子的人不要问为什么该怎样，你只要在内心深处问问你自己能不能承受就好了。如果你觉得值得就去接着付出，如果你觉得不值得就勇敢的放弃。除非他转身，不然再不要给瓶子们机会。当然如果一个瓶子转身过太多次又伤害过你太多次也就放手的好。不然他会从心里有些瞧不起你的。

瓶子们若爱上对方，真的是占有欲好强的。他们轻易不表现出来，因为他怕他们过强的占有欲会泄露了他爱你不能没有你的底牌。不过如果他们开始限制你吃你的醋，那他一定是好爱好爱你的。

瓶子们有时候真的很难真正相信他们的爱人。而且越是爱有时候越难相信。因为他们的谎言有时说的好多所以总觉得别人也是在欺骗。

千万不要轻易伤害了瓶子们的心，瓶子们对爱情很没有承受力的。你可能想象不到，当你刚刚气痛了你的瓶子或是和你的瓶子谈分手跳脚离开的同时，他们可能就会打电话给他们的红颜知己或是有暖味关系的朋友们，说一些过分的话做一些过分的事甚至当夜就会和他们发生什么……，瓶子们不是想背叛你，瓶子们只是好悲伤，找不到更合适的方式来发泄。好多被伤害过的瓶子都会生活得很烂很灰色，虽然过后可能会后悔厌恶自己到想死但他们就是习惯用这种颓迷的生活来掩饰自己深深的失落深深的痛。

当然，当你后悔之后回来找他的时候，他还会接受你，他不会告诉你曾经发生过什么而且会极力的去掩饰，如果他爱你。但通常好多事实已经无法改变了。当你背叛了瓶子，瓶子们会痛到心裂成碎片，没有泪，即便有，也是流在了心里流到了别人永远看不到的背后。

因为我说过的，虽然瓶子们忠诚度不敢苛同，但他们真的是在内心深处最最在乎的就是那两个字：忠诚。在你背叛了瓶子后有两种结果。一是瓶子们无声的接受，重新选择和你在一起，因为他们爱你，无法承受分手。但他们的信念死了，他们可能会不再相信你的话，他们会背着你有了另一个人，甚至另N个人，哪怕他们并不爱那些人，也可能会做一些不该做的事来谋求一些心理的平衡，然后再背叛你的同时找回那可怜的平衡同时痛不欲声。

另一种是，他们对爱的忠贞要求的太过唯美无法接受，瓶子们会用你认为最冷血的方式选择分手，可能是微笑的告诉你他们也从来未曾爱过你，你尽可以去和千百个人去睡；可能是毫不在乎的转身离去；可能是在分手后在你面前和无数个异性打情骂俏；可能是在最快的时间里接受另一个人重新开始并甜蜜的出现在每个人的面前……无论以上哪种，他们的心其实是在滴血的。前提是他们真的爱你。

他们会在这些表象的背后独自买醉，在最短的时间里抽最多的烟，出卖自己的身体甚至灵魂。用最残忍的方式暗自伤害自己麻醉自己，也会去折磨这时爱他的下一个男孩和女孩。一个失去了信念的瓶子们的痛是无法想象的，他们只能真正用自己的方式慢慢的寻求某种出路。

瓶子们喜欢一见钟情，但是他们更喜欢日久生情；瓶子们接受一夜性，但他们更渴望一生情；他们的弹性好大，善良几乎可以善良到佛的境界，卑劣也可以卑劣到遭万人唾弃。瓶子们多数都很茫然。他们是真的不了解自己，不知道自己真正想什么要什么，虽然他们也许可以轻易看出别人的人性动机需求。

瓶子们喜欢暗自观察身边的人，窥探到别人的内心深处，凭自己的直觉和洞察力去了解别人，他们的直觉往往也真的好强好强。

瓶子们最惨的就是碰到一个真的比自己还好自由还喜欢漂泊还花心的人，因为他们的好自由有的时候真的就是一种伪装，一种保护，一种检验你是否爱他的手段。一个真正只想爱你一个人只想忠贞于你一个人的瓶子就不会再要求什么自由了，他们想要的就是占有和共处。

做瓶子们父母也往往好辛苦，瓶子们是孝顺的，我确定。但那种孝不是顺从。他们有太多自己的想法自己的原则，所以当这些和父母的想法发生冲突的时候他们会据理力争。哪怕没有冲突，仅仅是父母的唠叨他们也只是暗自记在心里嘴上说着罗嗦罗嗦。他们太过叛逆太过自我，但真的，他们深爱自己的父母，深深的知道没有任何一种感情可以超越这种血肉之情，所以他们无法容忍你批评他们的父母或和他们的父母争执，不管他们是如何争执，这种资格只有瓶子们自己有。

I am short of time...

Short sem....
busy...
very busy...
Time...
there is not enough time...
i am short of time...
3 assignment...
Tutorial...
GUC camp...
Japanese culture night drama Script..
meeting...
teaching....
midterm test...(thx god,acually fall at 24 nov,now alrdy change to 25nov,no crashing with GUC camp)

~I am tired...really tired...~@.@

Happy moment...new born baby...

Saturday night,
went to tesco with some of the form 5 buddy...
this is the first time we buy baby stuff..
everyone was keep looking at us...
because we look so young..
dun look like parents..
but we do have fun...
since this is d first time..
the feeling was so special...
because yesterday,Sunday,
was one of our form 5 buddy,Lau,his first child full moon...
he is the earliest among us,who get married and having a child..
we are happy for him..



Last night,
we drank lots at his house...
his dad was keep pushing the guys to drink...
So d girls just helping d guys to drink as we can..
cos the guys needs to drive...
can't drink lots...
n they can't drink much..
easy drank..
at last,everyone is start to drank...
all in red..
haha
anyway is a great moment...
we do enjoy it..
everyone safety reach home...

挣扎

最近都有一些烦恼,
有一些是关于灵命...
其实我这两个月都在挣扎过程...
最后还是被发觉了...
其实很矛盾...
其实我早有答案....
也有做过决定...

我不可能属于两个身份...
我只能选一个...
两个身份会让我有点困乱...
我无法集中...
所以那天的我才会那么不认真...
但这决定真的很难...
左手右手你叫我如何选...
我很挣扎...
给我多点时间...

以前...曾经...现在...

以前的我们什么都没有...
却过得很幸福...

当曾经拥有一切的时候...
却失去了单纯的幸福...

现在的我们...
却在寻找失去过的幸福...

A litte journey....

let talk about what i am doing on saturday...
saturday,hang out with my form 5 buddy..
we go wing cafe at melaka raya till one somethings...
then when to our old place which is mcd D...haha
chat at there till 3am..quite late
first time went to" wing" cafe...
n i feel the environment is quite good..not bad..
just know that the cafe located same row with "xuan"cafe...
quite long time nvr went to xuan alrdy..
still remember the first time i went there was last year near to christmas..
celebrate my friend birthday there...
just remember the singer is really pro at there..
they can sing really well...
wing cafe not bad too..

Sunday hang out with "mmu family"...
we go to jonker,eat lup lup...n klebang...
cos they suddenly wish to go seaside...
n i recommend everlyn resort..
cos that side is more safety n nice....
n we do have a great time there...
feel really happy n relax when everytime go to seaside...
don't know why...
but i just love it...
the wave sound ,the star,the sky and the wind...
everythings make me feel so comfortable...
just like paradise...

~"让我们变成回忆...结束这场游戏..."~

最近我有一班要好的朋友...
我门只需在短短的两个星期内...
从一个不太相识的朋友...
变成好像一班老友...
这一班朋友我把他称为"一家人"...
因为里头有"爸妈及女儿"...

因为我们六人每当在一起的时候,
都会很开心...
我们一起吃饭,一起上课,一起游玩...
其实一切都是从上个学期...
study week 开始...
我们一起为考试拼...
不知不觉组成了一组新的study group...
那两个星期促进了我们彼此之间的关系....

最近我们好像玩得过火了...
一些男女的关系从暧昧...
变成了真情...
一些只是单方而已...
现在感情方面陷入复杂状况...
不想看到...
最后任何人受到伤害....

好想结束这场游戏....

会议

今天本来已经打算要去青少年聚会...
但突然受到了朋友的讯息...
说迟点可以见面谈关于报章的发布会...
因为他有认识报馆的人...
所以约了他出来谈...
就因为这样,
所以就没去教会...

刚才,也刚从教会回来...
和主席谈了一些关于camp的事情...
发觉到搞活动真的很有挑战性...
真的需要足够的信心...
需要彼此的信任,扶持,及体谅...
很欣赏主席的委生....
只因他有一个愿意的心...
为神办事...

忙碌的生活

这两天因为网络有问题...
所以就没上网...
这几天都过得很累...
所以就比平时早睡了....

这几天都是忙着开会,教书,及上课...
开会是为了预备将来临的儿童成长营(GUC camp)..
是性教育及品格塑造课程...
这次的营会都必须仔细地计划...
以免有损失或问题的出现...

前天才知道,这个月有一张midterm test...
会在二十四号晚上...
当晚将是营会的结业礼...
希望会改期,
不然当天就会缺少很多人手...
所以这个学期考试都必须提早准备...

昨天拒绝了...
为来临的圣诞节...
负责在设计及布置方面...
我心里其实很内疚...
因为当是考虑了很多...
尤其是时间方面...
及各人计划方面....
好像把主排到最后....
对,我希望我能把握每一个机会...
但我知道我的能力却有限...

每一次,
都很喜欢对自己说...
"GOD,I KNOW U ALWAYS UNDERSTAND ME"
哈哈

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:

"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

written by Carolyn Joyce Carty

新生命3-心灵医治

当晚,
是心灵医治的时候...
很多人在那里呼喊....
"耶稣救我...!!!"
"我的孩子..!!!"
"不要"...!!!
很多人在痛哭一场...
其实他们很清楚自己在做什么...
只是被聖灵充满...
聖灵在他们身上运行..
来医治他们心灵的创伤....

他们的呼喊声...
再次提醒我梦见的世界末日...
当时很暗....
人们不听地呼喊...
在那里痛哭...
那时的我好害怕...
好害怕没被拣选...
因为我们都是罪人...
在担心身边的人...
那些还没信主的人...
他们会得救吗...???

在梦中醒来的我....
身体不停地在抖..
你可以想象多么的恐怖..
那中恐惧感...
可以导致我发抖....
这可是我第一次经验...
那时我傻了一会儿...
掉了眼泪...
静静地在床上检讨自己..
很后悔自己没有传过福音...

有一次在小组分享...
才知道原来有一位朋友和我发同一个梦....
这个梦是多么的真实...
其实它带来了讯息....

新生命2

第一天,
我被派到一个小组去分享及讨论...
很特别的是神安排我在一个真的是"新生命"的小组..
第八组...

我的组员总共有六人...
全都是klueng的人,
才信主不久...
而他们都是成年人..
而我是最小的...
但却是"老将"...

我突然好像在带领一群绵羊....
因为他们都是新教徒...
有些他们在怀疑主的真实....
有些对自己的舌音产生怀疑...
有些对神还不肯定...
虽然我是"老将"...
但在灵命方面,
我还是"新手"...
我的灵命还需要不停地成长...
但这却是我第一次给长辈...
对主的肯定...

在分享过程,
学习了不少...
发觉到其实世界上真的有很多受过创伤的人....
表面看起来很好...
其实心灵已经是受伤了...
比起他们,其实我们真的是很幸福了....

新生命"REBORN"

That days,i went to a camp at Kluang,Johor...
for 3days 2night...
just bek today...
miss that place-canossian convent..
a peaceful place...
and the people there...
are so friendly...
just like heaven...

yesterday,
there is a section..
confession...
i went for the confession,
it been two years i never went to confess my sins,
cos i know,everytime i will only confess my lightly sin..
others i will keep inside d heart and will not confess to the father...
but before i go to the camp...
i already promise to jesus..
before i reach my 21 years old
i will confess all the sins that i dun dare to confess it in my whole life...
yesterday,
for the first time,
i broke down in front the father...
i cry out...
that is a inner things that i share with him...
i dunno how i gonna to solve it..
cos it seem a big test for me...
a heavy burden...

i tell him...
"father,
i can't..."

and the father say,
"yes,u can't..cos you are a human.Not everythings can done by one person,but Jesus can.."(in chinese)

Now we are already an adult,there are many things that we need to take for the first step,we need to take the right choice....and make the right decision...

I am no more a child...

其实我在乎...

昨晚,好朋友从UPM传了一封讯息...
向我求救...
紧张的我连忙打通电话给她...
原来她在面对感情的问题...
但她的看起来很严重....

因为她刚认识的学长...
才一个星期...
就对她很热情...
每天都传讯息给她...
问她吃饱了没有..在做什么...
然后晚上还到她的宿舍找她聊天...
让她觉得有点害怕及不对劲...
觉得她是同志...
让她也开始怀疑她自己...
我还很不认真地对她说...
"等待你下一局的故事"..哈哈
把她气死....

刚才晚上,
她才到达马六甲...
就必须和我们去outing...
看起来很累的她...
其实我心里面藏着一份感动...
因为她知道我今天早上就会到 kluang,johor去
大概星期天才回来...
所以唯一今天可以见面...
因为她星期天就会回去...
所以她就选了今天见面...

刚才和她们去看"sorority raw"...
很恐怖..但真的很赞...
值得去看哦...

留言:~很高兴今天outing有daryl的加入...
~改次不要忘了为你的电话充电哦,刚才我和你妈满担心你的,因为打不通,怕你被拐掉...
哈哈
~其实我还是很关心你的...别为这事情烦了,为你来临的考试加油吧!!!
~今天真的很感动...谢哦!^.~

好吧,就分享到这里...
好友劝我早点睡哦...
因为今早必须早起床出发了...
所以..晚安哦...@.@

累了...

今天收到了一封讯息....
是一位要好的马来朋友传来的...
他是KL人..
是以前在云顶打工时认识的朋友...
其实我们一直以来都有联络...
只是偶尔有问候对方...

但是他今天却传了一封讯息向我告白....
其实我没有感到惊讶...
因为我很早就感觉到了....
但却不希望他说出口...
因为我不喜欢面对这种场面....

我没有打算回他....
因为他自己也应该知道结果吧...
是不可能的事情....
今天读了朋友的部落格..
她说没有答案,也是一种答案...
哈哈...
很赞哦!!!
所以我的不回复,也是一种答案吧...哈XD...
希望他收到....

~不想再为感情的事情烦了...
真的很累...~

其实还有另一个感情的故事要分享...
但是...
我不想我的部落格装满"情"...
哈哈...
你们看了也会觉得烦吧....
所以改天有机会再分享吧...

我们是"友情",还是错过了的"爱情".....

那天,星期三..
在准备明天最后的冲刺....
收到了一封讯息...
就是那时在我生日时送我电话的朋友...
一位对我很好的朋友...
大概半年没有见面及联络的我门...
因为彼此都很忙碌吧....
突然告诉我他有女友了...
收到那封讯息的我,
不知该如何回复...
可能觉得有点突然吧....
那时的我应该觉得很开心才对...
因为他终于找到属于自己的幸福了...
但当时的我却不是如此...
其实有点伤感...
开始怀疑自己的感觉...
但我还是回复了他...
那可能就是我们最后的一封讯息....

~朋友,我永远祝福你....~

Mooncake festival~中秋晚会~4/10/09

That days,
organise a small mooncakes gathering with study group and coursemate...
after count how many people is going to join..
go and get some tanglung and mooncakes at last minute...
buy a box of "麦可思"mooncakes...
heard my friend say this mooncakes have kind of special taste...
they are so happy knowing about that...
so ngam,they just talk about this mooncakes...
acually plan to celebrate at mmu campus...
then at last minute,
one of our buddy,Terence, invite us to his shop and makan...
so all of us move there and celebrate...
we have an enjoyable moment that day..
although is study week...
haha...
that is the first time i celebrate mooncakes festival with friends...

~My Mission~

Recently never update my blog..
cos last two weeks is study week...
having exam in 2 weeks time...
that is many things that i wish to share...

hmm,what i will do in this two weeks holidays...

1. working(teaching)
2. preparation for GUC camp(growing up camp)
   
3. attend a church camp"新生命"mean "reborn"at Johor-16/10 till 18/10(coming weekend)
4. build a christianity blog or website(my first mission),is a god purpose,i have delay it for a long time
5. build my first internet business website or blog
6. prepare myself for 3rd sem ,next sem i wish to aim for "Dean list"-cgpa 3.67,seem that from beginning till now i just aim for pass,from foundation till Beta 1st sem,my Cgpa just maintain 3.20,haha,every sem just d same,but this sem i dun dare to see the result,the exam seem hard for us..everyone is struggle for this exam...anyway keep going guys!!!cos everyone can make a change
   

疯狂的一天

昨天是最后一张paper了...
早上考试时又来了地震...
这是第二次了...

朋友约了去gogo唱k...
庆祝考试完毕....
但没跟去..
因为有点事情,而且这两个星期平均只睡两个小时...
想回家好好休息..

考试时期跟朋友一班..study group..
在campus从早到晚啃书...
哈哈..
连我妈都怀疑我...
是去玩还是读书..
因为每天平均凌晨两点才回到家...

但晚上和他们去了sakura house..
吃sushi...哈..
突然心血来潮..
约了朋友去"情人桥"...
躺在桥上一会儿...
望着一片蓝蓝的天空...
闪亮的星星...
听着海浪的旋律...
吹着温柔的海风...
好怀念这种感觉...

回家路程中...
疯狂的我建议去看半夜场...
而心血来潮的他们就一口答应了...哈
我们看了一部韩国戏..."CHAW"...
觉的还满不错的...
哈哈..
"CREATURE"eat human...哈哈...
当晚也刚好碰巧教会朋友...eric,lex,khim,and vincent...
原来他们也去看半夜场哦..哈

"战场"与地震

今天是第一天进入"战场"...
第一天就必须打两场战了...
今天的考试就靠着咖啡提神了...
其实还是觉得很累...
因为我个人比较难吸收咖啡的功效...
喝了其实还能入睡...哈

今天大概三点多左右..
在"打仗"时来了地震...
这可是我第一次经验...
场面有点震动...
明天应该会更严重...
这一切只是开始...

今天偷偷抽了时间上网...
是时候时候回去加油站了....

留言:谢谢你们的讯息,体谅及加油打气哦^.~你们就是我的精神支柱...我会加油!!!^.~

Great outing...

music waterfall

Li ying,me,ye lin and adeline..best buddy

me and best buddy,ah sua..haha

our meal

hong kong original style nai cha...tea..my favourite

cheese baked rice with pork and portugese sauce

yesterday,

after watching tsunami with my family...

just reach home...
then receive a call from my buddy who just bek from UUM n my taekwondo sir...

go out to yum cha..

Haha...at last..

dunno why everyone so on...

go to watch midnight show..12.20am

G-force..

a funny cartoon...

is a great comedy show...very nice...

Today morning,

after teaching..

then go to meet my form 5 girl buddy..

have an outing today...

we go to Dp..

dunno wat to eat..

at last we choose to eat at wong kok...

the hong kong restaurant...

cos we never try b4..

n one of our friend say very nice...

7 of us call one set each..

at last...
we share the food 2gether..

keep trying and sharing the food..

really enjoy it...

better than eat our own self...haha

then we go to Mitc,

go to play bowling..

first time we went there...

got student card..

RM 5(per game) +RM2.50(shoe)...

normally is RM6 per game..

Then after fetching everyone back...

left my best frien,ye lin, and i...

then i invite her for a dinner at tong shui house at melaka baru..

cos this sunday they will bek to U alrdy..

then today should be the last outing for us...

cos now is mmu study week...

need to stay at home n study alrdy..final coming another 5 days...

guess this few day will burn midnite oil..

after that went to watch the music waterfall with my best friend..

acually wish to watch for a long time..

hmm..not bad..

quite nice..

haha...have a great time and a long chat with my best friend today..

nice outing with all of u...

Music waterfall

Life...

Today,
went to dp again...
cos my mum suddenly wish to go town area..
and watch the tsunami movie...
cos tat day after watching the singapore movie..
she saw the advertisement banner for tsunami movie at cinema...
so she guess that is a nice movie..
i guess because of the title...tsunami...
and today is wednesday...more cheaper for movie ticket...
we watch 3pm show...

overall the movie is consider nice...
very touching...
among all the movie i watch before...
i will prefer more in King Kong and 30 days night...
acually i love touching,adventures and love story...
sometime i do like scary movie..like zombies...

hmm...
tmr will having an outing with my form 5 girl team buddy...
guess will go town area again...
cos now they having holidays..
been a long time nvr hang out together...

After watch the tsunami movie..
feel that there are many things in our life...
are unexpected...
so sometime we need to expect..
an unexpected things that will happen in our life...
dun let ourselves a chance to say...
i am regret....
cos sometime it is too late to say so....

Unexpected

Today,
go to campus for a while to study...
cos at home can't really can focus..
too much attraction...

Go to mamak to havin some food...
then suddenly come an chinese old man to the shop..
sitting another table..
calling for a drink..
suddenly he chat with me from his table...

asking me what course i take and others...
advise me to study and plan well for future..
and i just keep eating there...
and listen wat he trying to say..
cos is stranger..
better be careful..

suddenly he shares with me his family..
he is 65 years old..
got 3 children..
they rent a room for him to stay..
at bukit baru....
but the children is not staying with him..
the old man can speak a very fluent english..
cos he is from st david school last time...

then he tells me that he lost the way...
just now plan to go bek bukit baru from central..
but take wrong bus...
then drop at bukit beruang...
so have a drink here...

from his conversation..
feels that he is a lonely old man...
that dun have family member around him..
so he feels bored to staying at home..
nothing to do..
so sometime will take bus and go around...

got some funny part..
he calls me dun talk to stranger....dangerous..
but he keeps talking with me..haha

when i want to take a leave after finish my meal...
he says he has not enough money to pay for the drink..
asking my help to pay for it..
cos he says he not enough money..
just buy a watch from central..
then later need to take bus go bek...
did not expect will lost d way...
the money he having now is just enough for him to take bus...

so i just answer ok..no problem..
cos that is nothing wrong with him...just help as i can..
then suddenly he tells me....
"girl,I am a christian"...
and i answer "I am a christian too"...
he says"Is nice to meet u,ya,what is your name?"
Jen....

his sharings remind me somethings..
dun leave your parents alone..
when they are old...
money is not everythings...
what they want is the care from their child..

his sharings let me think about the singapore movie..
Money not enough 2...
directed by Jack Neo..
somethings about family love...
he is a christian too...
in every movie he direct....
acually got a message there..
a moral value...
although some part of his movie..
is not nice to watch..

Tired...studying@enjoying

Today,
went for youth service...
today service..
dunno why..
tears just keep dropping from my eye...
because of holy spirit and touching...
and because of the nice song too..
sing a few time today..
after crying,feel more tired..haha

acually i dun like to cry in front of people.
when i know i will start to drop my tears...
i will try to control it...
or just straightly go to wash room...
if i wish to cry,i wish to cry alone...

after service,
we went to MP and Newton to havin some meal..
cos got new member comin to join us today..
so we brings her go and jalan-jalan,cari makan...haha

Today,
i feel bit sorry for my best frien and form 5 buddy..
sorry for can't spend much time with u all...
since u all got one week holidays..
little dog,sorry for can't watch midnight show with u tmr...
thx for always understand me...
thx for being my best friend..

Tomorrow,Sunday,
after church,
will meet my brother...
he just back from johor this weekend...
yesterday,he just bought movie ticket for tomorrow..
singapore movie..
"scared until u laugh"..haha...
feel quite surprised..
my brother suddenly become so good..
maybe he is getting matured alrdy..know how to think...
this few days, got keep in touch with me...
asking me somethings..but feel quite happy when accept his call..

tmr,
will go out with my brother and my family for a movie n outing...
guess tmr no time for study again..haha...
go to town area again..

yesterday,
today,
and tmr..
keep go for outing...
nvr go n study..
i really bad..
sorry for myself..
haha

anyway,
now i going to take a short nap....
after that,
will take a look on my book...
will cheers up..!!!

Form 5 buddy gathering..

Today,

all the form 5 buddy just came bek from U...

so we having a gathering...

is hard to gather all together..

we go satay celup..

and jetty gogo to sing k...till 2am...

feel abit sorry..

now i think my mmu buddy is busy study at home now..

but i still can come out to sing k...haha

honestly,i really haven prepare for comin final exam...

this sem,

my midterm result for two subject a bit bad for me....

a bit worried for me..

just wish that i can pass it on final...

for another 4 subject,

hope i can do it well...

Final,

total will take me 4 days..

2 paper per days for two days..

anyway i will try my best...

and pray for it...

so everyone jia you!!!