God Gift

God...
i might not as strong as u think...

God...
tell me what should i do...

God...
Is complicated...

God...
I am feeling tired for all this things...

I hope i can help...
I hope i can solve...
I hope i can understand...
But i need strength to keep going...

God,
u must hold me close...

Today i am a failure...
but not tomorrow...

~Tmr will be my first day serve in church in singing and worship...need to wake up at 5.30am...cos will be an early mass at 7am...Everythings praise to god,tmr will be a brand new days...cheers up!!!~

+~Hugs~+

This few days...
three of my friends come to me...
and straightly tell me that "I need a hugs"...
can you hugs me?
maybe it sound quite weird...
maybe we will think that a hugs is just a normal things...
nothings special...
but it acually a kind of warmity,love and care...
They need a hugs...
because they are down and need someone there...
Your hugs might be an amazing power for them...

My 21st birthday

时间过得很快,
我已经21岁了...
我已经是成年人了,
不再是小孩...
很多事情都必须三思而后行...
对每件事,每个行为都要负起责任...
我是一个很独立的人...
很多事情都喜欢独自去完成...
这行为有它的好.也有它的坏...
从去年已经开始承担自己的生活费...
因为自己本身有工作...
现在除了kumon,
也是三个学生的老师..
教书其实满不错的..
不会辛苦...
有时候很有成就感...

21岁的生日,搞了生日派对...
平常是朋友为我庆祝...
搞这生日派对,
其实是想要给我身边的朋友和家人一个团聚的机会...
朋友和家人也可以互相认识..

本来想要在家里举办...
因为家里的范围很小..
而且有点不方便..
下雨的话,就有点麻烦..

找了地点,
用了很值得的价钱把它租了下来...
这是我第一次到那地方去...
Harbour club melaka raya...
是哥告诉我的..
独自去了那里探索...
看到海边风景的时候觉得很高兴..
哈哈...
因为我很喜欢海边...
就这样找了那里的经理谈..
和他租下了泳池的范围...

过后,
就去谈关于膳食...
找了好香...
订了一百个人的食物...
谢谢他的厨师..
朋友和家人都觉得很好吃...
我只吃了几口..
没有真真去品尝...
因为忙着招待朋友和家人...

然后,
就去订蛋糕...
BINTANG 的 YEES 蛋糕店...
大多数都到那里订蛋糕...
订了CHOCOLATE蛋糕...
谈了一些关于蛋糕的设计..
画了图...
21岁的蛋糕
就是海边,桥,沙滩...
就像葡萄牙村...
加了脚印及FOOTPRINTS这字体...
因为很喜欢海边及footprints 这故事...
刚好朋友在那里打工...
给了我折扣...
订了4kg的蛋糕...
蛋糕真的很漂亮...
这要感谢我的朋友及蛋糕师..

其实只想要搞一个小派对...
但是身边有很多朋友..
不知该如何邀请..
所以考虑了很久,才做出如此决定...

这可是我第一次独自去完成一切...
所以那几天都很忙...
忙着准备及计划...
晚上也有到那里探索..
看是否地点安全...
因为靠近SUNSHINE酒吧及ALOHA DISCO...

不管如何,
一切都值得...
大家开心就好...

要和我的好友道歉...
当天没办法和她们一起游泳...
因为时间的关系..
害到他们白费带泳衣来...
哈哈..

~Thx everyone for coming,and thx God for everythings!!!~

The Doll Love Story

Japanese Culture night was already end at 6/2...
acually we only take one week to practise n plan all the scene...
can imagine how rush we are...
bcos of exam,holidays,and not enough character problem...
so we drag the practise time...
everythings done in last minute...
thx God that everythings end with a great ending...

I wish to thx to my mmu family them...
Terence,Shu Yin,Fock Chen and Kelvin...
Really thx for their help...
without them,
i think i not manage to complete this drama...

Acually they nvr take part in this event,
Bcos of short of actor...
i ask their help in acting this drama...
and they straightly accept it without thinking twice...
really touching for what they say...
~No problem!!!we are best buddy,one family~

The Doll Love Story is about

Sakura has a boy friend that grows up with her, his name is Kimura.
They know each other since they are small.
Sakura always thought Kimura as a friend.
Until last year, Sakura took a step and confess her love for him,
but Kimura act like nothing.
Kim just continued handling Sakura a little doll everyday outside her house.
Those dolls piled up in her room everyday.
Sakura never heard Kim say I love you before.
Sakura is angry with Kimura,
because she know that Kimura haSfeeling with her,
but he always try to escape,
everyday just pass Sakura a doll without saying anythings...

One day,
Sakura get angry and throw the doll in front of Kimura...
They start to quarrel and having conflict...
Sakura push Kimura away and go away...
AT that moment a lorry is coming toward Sakura...
Kimura trying to save Sakura and get bang by the lorry..
at last Kimura Dead...
Sakura just found out that acually Kimura is telling her I Love You everyday...
acually each of the dolls is alrdy record the sound "I LOVE YOU"...

~Special thx to my friend too who cheers me up and support me all d way...thx!!!~
~Thx to all drama members too...thx!!!

Valentine

vAlentine...

how i am going to describe it...

ya..is true tat i am alrdy 21 years old...

is time for me to have a soul mate...

but...

i am not ready yet...

acually i prefer single...

Did i having any relationship before?

No..haha...if u guys dun believe,can check it out...

Did i fall in love with someone before?

Yes...i do..but now i dun have...hmm...i feel tat i like guy tat matured but fun...

ya,can't denied tat...

there are many good guy around me...

some even treat me very nice...

but love things is hard to say...

it nvr mean a guy treat a gal good...

then d gal will fall in love to the guy...

love feeling is just amazing...

can't describe with word...

some friend even ask me to have a try...

just try some puppy love...

to gain some experience...

haha..i think i can't...

cos i do look seriously in this matter...

soul mate is for a whole life...

is two person with one thought...

two heart beat as one...

two soul in one bodies...

If future if i do have one...

then i hope it will be the first @ the last one...

anyway just let God plan for everythings...

i wish everyone there HAPPY VALENTINE <3...

For single one...

dun be sad...

there is nothing to be sad...

thx for being my valentine...haha^^

Love is not how you forget,

but how you forgive...

not how you listen,

but how you understand...

Not what you see,

but what you feel...

NOT HOW YOU LET GO...

BUT HOW YOU HOLD ON...

~Love is trust...

+CDF IS FORMALLY APPROVED+

30/1

That day went to Kluang,Johor...to discuss about self discovery fellowship (CDF) proposal with bishop,father and sister...n our proposal alrdy been approved!!! All this praise to God,and thx God for everythings!!! Just follow what God plan for you...He will lead you and show you the way=======+

Proposal Formation 天主教探索团契正式成立

30/01/2010 Time:10.30am-12.00pm Venue: Canossian Convent,Kluang, Johor

Attendees : Bishop Paul Tan, Fr. Joseph Heng, Fr. Thomas Koo, Fr. Ryan, Bro. Eddie, Bro. Joachim, Sr. Myriam Heng, Sr. Clara Lee, Sr. Marian Lim, Sr. Theresa Chay, Sr. Veronica, Andrew Tan, Jenniher Yong, Paul Foo, Dominic Yong, Fabian Thong

Discussion : Formation of CDF and proposal presentation

Result : CDF is approved by the Malacca-Johor Diocesan and is operating under STC, Malacca!

一切光荣都归于我们天上的大父！在祂的眷顾与引领下，天主教探索团契终于在主教的首肯与圣召局（Vocation Promotional Council）的通过下正式成立了！

主耶稣曾说过：“凡你们对我这些最小兄弟中的一个所做的，就是对我做”。（玛二十五：40）让我们成为地上的盐，世界的光，依靠耶稣圣名，把爱传给在黑暗、哀伤、困苦及绝望中的人们，让他们也能感受到主爱的奇妙与伟大吧！

我们都拥有一颗被圣神触动的心，火热而又充满希望！

让我们把主耶稣白白赐给我们的爱，转化成实际的行动，把爱传出去！主已拣选了你，勇敢地成为耶稣的精兵吧！

~Once we are friend,4ever we are...~

That is many things i wish to share...
but time is limited...
cos this sem is really busy...

2day let me share about friendship...
That day u tell me that i am the only one true n best friend for u...
acually i am very happy to know that...
bcos u listed me as ur only best n trusted friend...
but i really wish that u can have more than one best friend around u...
bcos i know that you are a nice friend...
dun look down on urself...
that is nothing wrong with u...
everythings still can make a change...
i know it might be hard for u to trust ppl...
Ya,is true that...
things is keep changing...
including human attitude n behaviour...
can't always look back to beginning...
Just wish to say that we appreaciate u as a friend...
Once we are friend,4ever we are...
~We are one family...always be there for u...~

I am still the one you know...

I am just a simple one...
there is so good...
if someone there is really understand me...

My ages is keep growing up...
I know there are much things for me to go through...
i dunno wat my life would be...
but i know God is really planning for my life now...
i can see and feel it...
n i am following his path...
Is not easy to go through every step...
I am stepping one by one...
and i am go through day by day...

No matter who am i one day...
No matter what happen...
I appreaciate every single things in my life...
Just remember that I am still the one you know...

I am trying my best...

Yesterday having drama training like usual...
but yesterday is kinda of stress...
but yesterday at least we alrdy complete all the drama scene...
now just left sound effect n some timing movement...
Yesterday acting part is the most difficult for me...
wish i need to act angry...
crying n shouting....
the scene need to make myself emo abit b4 start to act on it...
at last i am satisfied tat i make it...
without feeling any shy or embrassing...
tears is really drop from my eye in d crying part...
just try push myself to cry on it...
the last part really need to try hard...
bcos it is everythings for the drama...
the feeling...
now is not a time for me to feel happy for it...
bcos the real one is coming soon...
i hope everythings will going smooth...
n hope that my sound will not getting bad...

My Purpose is to Love...

31/1/2010
Today,
'kai zai' say i look different...
look like bcome another person...
he is not the first one to say tat...

hmm...
dunno wat to say...
dun worry about me...
i am ok...
maybe this month bit tired...
busy...n maybe bit stress...
everythings will be going find...

I feel like start to lost myself...
what i am doing now...
who i am...

Everytime,
i will look seriously on a things...
i really do care what people think about me...
I will try my best to pleased everyone...
even sometime i know it is stupid to do so...
but sometime we can't alwiz think about our own self...
we need to think for others too...

Sometime i will keep asking myself...
why?what?who?
n the answer is... my purpose is to Love...
i am learning to say "why not me"...
instead of "why is me"...