LOVE..<3..What it mean to you???

2day-6/11/08

2day got a friend share a secret wit me...about her background,her personality n family.she say tat she just let 2 ppl noe bout tat..n i feel quite happy tat i am d choosen one..cos she willing to share wit me her story..maybe god choose me to be her listener n share d burden wit her.she say tat a few year ago she just noticed tat she is a adopted child.. the moment of truth happen when her grandpa told her this big secret b4 his last breath..tat she is a adopted child..she really got a big shocked,when she noe the truth..n his grandma keep trying to stop her grandpa from sharing d secret..at last,her grandpa passed away peacefully...she told me tat her parent treat her badly..they did not care bout her..from small until now..her home is just like hell..or maybe can call hotel...a place to sleep...but is not a place to get a piece of love or caring..everyday just go bek..do sum house work..eat sum food..n go bek to room..without havin any chatting or sharing among her parent n her..nowadays,she did not call her parent mum or dad anymore..since she noe tat she is a adopted child n bcos they did not love her...when she trying to noe more about herself..her parent just annoying her n keep silent...they just let her noe tat u ar a baby tat we use money to buy!!!in her mind,tat is alwiz a question mark?????who is my real parent????why they abandoned me???when is my real birthday??? her parents alwiz ask money from her..when they noe tat she get paid for her job...they take all d money n only left rm50 for her...she told me tat she really hate her parents..n wish to move out..cos in her life,tat is no love!!!but hate!!!

when i heard her sharing,tat is a kind of sad n deep feeling inside my heart...cos she need to stay in a bad environment...growing up in such environment...no mother love..a child without love..is just like a heart without breath...n now she stil need to go on tis kind of life...No choice....sometime tis is wat we call life..bside tat ,there is also an anger feeling inside my heart...why her parents can treat her like tis??if they dun love her,why they buy n raise her???why they want to make her suffer???they ar innocent child..parent is d one who should responsible for it...as a parent,they should love n protect their children.. even an adopted child..Adopted child is a human too,they hav feeling too..they are not rubbish..which u can pick n throw anytime u like...sometime human heart is really scary than animal....u really can't imagine it....

some how,she told me tat she can feel n get the kind of family love at church..which make her feel peaceful....church is her new home...although her parent dun love her..there is a person who alwiz love her..he is our god...our god is love,and his love is eternal...anyway,pray tat her realtionship wit her parent will getting better.. n pray tat god blessing will be upon her n her family...

The Beginning of me...

Today 1/11/08,suddenlly feel want to clean up my home cupboard.when i open it,n i saw all my medal n trophy.Got a trophy i hold it on my hand for a long time..keep looking on it..tat is my first trophy..a trophy tat i get when i standard 5,cos tat is d first time i get number 1 in class.it make me think back my primary memory....n tears started keep rounding inside my eye..primary is unforgettable moment 4 me..too many good n bad memory...stealing,fighting,talkative,exam cheating,joining gangsterlism,playing rubber n stick..all i done b4 at school when primary....quite tomboy acualy when i primary...of cos i done good things also..haha..stil remember i like to buy junk food instead of healthy food..so when i standard 2 i think,i get high fever..104 celcius..dame hot..n my uncle is a doctor,he writes a letter n sent me to hospital melaka..n i stay at there for a few days..one day,when i sleeping on d bed,my mum was not around tat time..a few of indian girl stand in front of my bed,they trying to discuss something..maybe is nurse or doctor..n suddenly they took a pail of water n pour on my body..realy crazy...my shirt n my bed was wet..i feel so cool tat time,n the fan was on the top of my body..my teeth n my body just kept "menggigil"...maybe they trying to save me..the next day,my temperature cool down little bit..n another day my mum brought me to a room without told me anything..a group of nurse trying to inject me..i think they inject me around 8 times to get sum blood from my body..for blood test i think..realy scary n i just keep shouting n crying tat time..haha..but wat open my eye in tat youngest age is they are sum ppl tat pity than me ,they just lay on d bed for their whole day without any movement,most ar malay n sum indian..n i realise tat how lucky i am acualy..so tat time i start to appreaciate my life..so tat is part of my sharing.Now talk about the trophy bek,it is a teacher who burn my spirit out,i started to change myself n study hard..she is my chinese teacher,Zhen Ya He,alrdy 7 years..but i stil remember her name..cos she means a lot to me..long story..but she is d one who cheers me up..n i feel happy tat at last i nvr dissapointed her n make her proud wit me..realy thx to her...Alrdy 7 years i nvr step to my primary school,Pay Fong 2,really miss it..maybe one day i will go bek n visit all my teacher there..wish tat she stil there...