GUC CAMP

Tuesday just finish the GUC camp,
this time the number of student that join are less,
but the ending is really wonderful...
is full of tears and touching...
the student is crying on the stage,
and tears is surround in the parent eye....

when i do promotion part with my leader,Galvin,that time....
we do go alot of place to promote our camp,
and this time our advertising even better than last year...
which we successfully advertise our camp in four newspaper,
nanyang,sinchew,chinapress and guangming....
compare to last year,
only in chinapress...
but what was curious is the number of parents that call up is less compare to last year...

that time leader start to worried about the number of participant,
but acually i not really worried...
cos i still believe that eveythings in god plan will be great...
god alrdy plan everythings...
even only one ppl joining...
we still need to keep going...
of cos being a leader is different...

Thursday,
we having meeting at church about the camp,
leader try to speak out his feeling about this camp,
all of us just try to speak out truly,
if we having any missunderstanding with each other...
we try apologies n thx to each other...
at last, all of us just speak out our inner feeling...

What i trying to say is everyone is trying their best in this camp,
some of them burn the midnite oil to do the slide show,timetable,photo,video n gift...
some of them even take two day unpaid leave bcos of this camp...
some purposely take a ride from KL to melaka and go back to kl again bcos of this camp...
some of them even sacrifice their study time,rush their assignment,presentation in d midnight...
but really thx god that..
he change the exam date from 24 to 25...
god do hear our prayer...
n thx god for his blessing...
bcos this time exam is not really hard as we expect...

of cos i would to say sorry if i do make any mistake...
acually i not really done well in this camp...
but of cos for sure i will try to make a change...

~thx to joanne who help me to finish a class exercise when i skip the class...haha..she is kind of funny,sms me what she wrote after she finish it

~thx to jessy who sms me at the moment i finish my camp that night...
calling me better go n sleep first,before doing revision..haha...she noe i will burn midnite oil..

yup,tuesday after the camp,we celebarate one of our committee member 21st birthday!^^We do have a great time.Wishing that her coming journey will be going great..cheers n god bless^.~

水瓶座

Yesterday my friend tag me in facebook,about my zodiac-Aquarius...hmm...i feel some of it quite true..haha..so share with u all..enjoy reading it...if wish to know more about others zodiac,can view my facebook profile..^.~

星座分析~~

水瓶座看到过花瓶的样子吗？口很小，想伸进去很难，但如果你能进入瓶子里，你真的会看到一个广阔无比的空间。瓶子们就是这样的。

当他们觉得你是真的真的爱他们，和你在一起真的真的安全时，他们会开始回馈的。他们回馈的时候你会惊奇到不敢相信，因为他们一旦爱一个人真的是无微不至。不过他们也很容易厌倦的呀，瓶子们有一颗猫一样的心，你要永远对他们有吸引力才好。不然他们很难不偷猩的。

男瓶尤其如此，他们有的时候真的是做了对不起你的事也丝毫没有愧疚。有时候他们会无理的想只要我心里真正爱的是你不会离开你就是真的爱你。他们的自由有时就是放纵的借口。

但瓶子们也有弱点的，当他做伤害你的事的时候，你要懂得让他换位思考，甚至直接用他对你的方式隔天对他试试。他就会渐渐明白对你的伤害是怎样的了。他爱你他就会逐渐的懂得在乎你的感受。

瓶子们轻易不说我爱你这三个字的，这三个字在他眼里太神圣，更重要的原因是他们觉得说了这三个字在爱情中仿佛主动权就失去了。他们太怕失去爱情中的主动权。但你却不能不对他们说，很没有道理，但没办法的。如果一个瓶子对你说了太多的我爱你，反而证明他内心深处对你没感觉只是玩玩而已了。

爱上瓶子是一件很苦的事，所以爱瓶子的人不要问为什么该怎样，你只要在内心深处问问你自己能不能承受就好了。如果你觉得值得就去接着付出，如果你觉得不值得就勇敢的放弃。除非他转身，不然再不要给瓶子们机会。当然如果一个瓶子转身过太多次又伤害过你太多次也就放手的好。不然他会从心里有些瞧不起你的。

瓶子们若爱上对方，真的是占有欲好强的。他们轻易不表现出来，因为他怕他们过强的占有欲会泄露了他爱你不能没有你的底牌。不过如果他们开始限制你吃你的醋，那他一定是好爱好爱你的。

瓶子们有时候真的很难真正相信他们的爱人。而且越是爱有时候越难相信。因为他们的谎言有时说的好多所以总觉得别人也是在欺骗。

千万不要轻易伤害了瓶子们的心，瓶子们对爱情很没有承受力的。你可能想象不到，当你刚刚气痛了你的瓶子或是和你的瓶子谈分手跳脚离开的同时，他们可能就会打电话给他们的红颜知己或是有暖味关系的朋友们，说一些过分的话做一些过分的事甚至当夜就会和他们发生什么……，瓶子们不是想背叛你，瓶子们只是好悲伤，找不到更合适的方式来发泄。好多被伤害过的瓶子都会生活得很烂很灰色，虽然过后可能会后悔厌恶自己到想死但他们就是习惯用这种颓迷的生活来掩饰自己深深的失落深深的痛。

当然，当你后悔之后回来找他的时候，他还会接受你，他不会告诉你曾经发生过什么而且会极力的去掩饰，如果他爱你。但通常好多事实已经无法改变了。当你背叛了瓶子，瓶子们会痛到心裂成碎片，没有泪，即便有，也是流在了心里流到了别人永远看不到的背后。

因为我说过的，虽然瓶子们忠诚度不敢苛同，但他们真的是在内心深处最最在乎的就是那两个字：忠诚。在你背叛了瓶子后有两种结果。一是瓶子们无声的接受，重新选择和你在一起，因为他们爱你，无法承受分手。但他们的信念死了，他们可能会不再相信你的话，他们会背着你有了另一个人，甚至另N个人，哪怕他们并不爱那些人，也可能会做一些不该做的事来谋求一些心理的平衡，然后再背叛你的同时找回那可怜的平衡同时痛不欲声。

另一种是，他们对爱的忠贞要求的太过唯美无法接受，瓶子们会用你认为最冷血的方式选择分手，可能是微笑的告诉你他们也从来未曾爱过你，你尽可以去和千百个人去睡；可能是毫不在乎的转身离去；可能是在分手后在你面前和无数个异性打情骂俏；可能是在最快的时间里接受另一个人重新开始并甜蜜的出现在每个人的面前……无论以上哪种，他们的心其实是在滴血的。前提是他们真的爱你。

他们会在这些表象的背后独自买醉，在最短的时间里抽最多的烟，出卖自己的身体甚至灵魂。用最残忍的方式暗自伤害自己麻醉自己，也会去折磨这时爱他的下一个男孩和女孩。一个失去了信念的瓶子们的痛是无法想象的，他们只能真正用自己的方式慢慢的寻求某种出路。

瓶子们喜欢一见钟情，但是他们更喜欢日久生情；瓶子们接受一夜性，但他们更渴望一生情；他们的弹性好大，善良几乎可以善良到佛的境界，卑劣也可以卑劣到遭万人唾弃。瓶子们多数都很茫然。他们是真的不了解自己，不知道自己真正想什么要什么，虽然他们也许可以轻易看出别人的人性动机需求。

瓶子们喜欢暗自观察身边的人，窥探到别人的内心深处，凭自己的直觉和洞察力去了解别人，他们的直觉往往也真的好强好强。

瓶子们最惨的就是碰到一个真的比自己还好自由还喜欢漂泊还花心的人，因为他们的好自由有的时候真的就是一种伪装，一种保护，一种检验你是否爱他的手段。一个真正只想爱你一个人只想忠贞于你一个人的瓶子就不会再要求什么自由了，他们想要的就是占有和共处。

做瓶子们父母也往往好辛苦，瓶子们是孝顺的，我确定。但那种孝不是顺从。他们有太多自己的想法自己的原则，所以当这些和父母的想法发生冲突的时候他们会据理力争。哪怕没有冲突，仅仅是父母的唠叨他们也只是暗自记在心里嘴上说着罗嗦罗嗦。他们太过叛逆太过自我，但真的，他们深爱自己的父母，深深的知道没有任何一种感情可以超越这种血肉之情，所以他们无法容忍你批评他们的父母或和他们的父母争执，不管他们是如何争执，这种资格只有瓶子们自己有。

I am short of time...

Short sem....
busy...
very busy...
Time...
there is not enough time...
i am short of time...
3 assignment...
Tutorial...
GUC camp...
Japanese culture night drama Script..
meeting...
teaching....
midterm test...(thx god,acually fall at 24 nov,now alrdy change to 25nov,no crashing with GUC camp)

~I am tired...really tired...~@.@

Happy moment...new born baby...

Saturday night,
went to tesco with some of the form 5 buddy...
this is the first time we buy baby stuff..
everyone was keep looking at us...
because we look so young..
dun look like parents..
but we do have fun...
since this is d first time..
the feeling was so special...
because yesterday,Sunday,
was one of our form 5 buddy,Lau,his first child full moon...
he is the earliest among us,who get married and having a child..
we are happy for him..



Last night,
we drank lots at his house...
his dad was keep pushing the guys to drink...
So d girls just helping d guys to drink as we can..
cos the guys needs to drive...
can't drink lots...
n they can't drink much..
easy drank..
at last,everyone is start to drank...
all in red..
haha
anyway is a great moment...
we do enjoy it..
everyone safety reach home...

挣扎

最近都有一些烦恼,
有一些是关于灵命...
其实我这两个月都在挣扎过程...
最后还是被发觉了...
其实很矛盾...
其实我早有答案....
也有做过决定...

我不可能属于两个身份...
我只能选一个...
两个身份会让我有点困乱...
我无法集中...
所以那天的我才会那么不认真...
但这决定真的很难...
左手右手你叫我如何选...
我很挣扎...
给我多点时间...

以前...曾经...现在...

以前的我们什么都没有...
却过得很幸福...

当曾经拥有一切的时候...
却失去了单纯的幸福...

现在的我们...
却在寻找失去过的幸福...

A litte journey....

let talk about what i am doing on saturday...
saturday,hang out with my form 5 buddy..
we go wing cafe at melaka raya till one somethings...
then when to our old place which is mcd D...haha
chat at there till 3am..quite late
first time went to" wing" cafe...
n i feel the environment is quite good..not bad..
just know that the cafe located same row with "xuan"cafe...
quite long time nvr went to xuan alrdy..
still remember the first time i went there was last year near to christmas..
celebrate my friend birthday there...
just remember the singer is really pro at there..
they can sing really well...
wing cafe not bad too..

Sunday hang out with "mmu family"...
we go to jonker,eat lup lup...n klebang...
cos they suddenly wish to go seaside...
n i recommend everlyn resort..
cos that side is more safety n nice....
n we do have a great time there...
feel really happy n relax when everytime go to seaside...
don't know why...
but i just love it...
the wave sound ,the star,the sky and the wind...
everythings make me feel so comfortable...
just like paradise...

~"让我们变成回忆...结束这场游戏..."~

最近我有一班要好的朋友...
我门只需在短短的两个星期内...
从一个不太相识的朋友...
变成好像一班老友...
这一班朋友我把他称为"一家人"...
因为里头有"爸妈及女儿"...

因为我们六人每当在一起的时候,
都会很开心...
我们一起吃饭,一起上课,一起游玩...
其实一切都是从上个学期...
study week 开始...
我们一起为考试拼...
不知不觉组成了一组新的study group...
那两个星期促进了我们彼此之间的关系....

最近我们好像玩得过火了...
一些男女的关系从暧昧...
变成了真情...
一些只是单方而已...
现在感情方面陷入复杂状况...
不想看到...
最后任何人受到伤害....

好想结束这场游戏....